I only say you don’t understand if I really feel like you don’t understand what I’m trying to say. I never said to you guys that I don’t appreciate that you guys help me with my problems…but the things you say and the advice you give me aren’t what I’m looking for. Is it so hard to just kinda listen once and a while? You can’t just blame me for not taking your advice. You stand and look at my point of view, but you don’t see. You guys don’t go through what I go through so you can’t possibly understand everything that I’m feeling. All the pain…you can’t feel it like I do. You guys assume it’s easy so you tell me to shrug it off. I know there are others who have to deal with worse, but it doesn’t mean what I deal with isn’t difficult or complicated. I just wish friends would be better at being friends. It’s come down to the point where I’m tired of giving my effort and my time to try and reconnect. I’ve tried and tried but it’s never enough for you guys, and in the end you guys don’t even try contacting me back. So it’s me who automatically has to take the blame. Part of why I’m so independent now a days.